maddy

..Well in attempt to help myself in this weight loss efforts i took on a project  at work, sort of a innovative program for weight loss,

well to be honest with you if i can lead by example maybe my success would be effective as well.

well heres the scoop. every week as you all know. we need a motivational hints and some sort of forum to vent, and share ,theres about 15 women now in this group and the attendance seems to be on the rise every week with new wanna be’s, some stay and some drop out and well i basically focus on those who are seriuos and attend to the ones who are just there to chat..

so we meet in the class room , and being a nurse we have alot more advantage to have there un- divided attention ,its like a cop in authority,,you talk they listen..

let me share the capacity of the clients,they range from 40 -70 and vary in different weight ranges most are diabetic, so theres alot of teaching that goes along with the group as well, we share ,journals, and recipes and well they sort of rolled off the band wagon around the holidays and when a college professor took over for a while to gain some college credits,(Theylaughed).what are we going to do with college credits now!! hehe..but never to late to get it straight…and they all have excuses like the rest of the world of dieters, they can’t move and walk, but lord if its something good to eat,,, they certainly can run!!

well anyway to keep this group who  call them selves the SMARTIES..sensibly making a right thing in eating smart!!..is there logo and before the holidays and  we all started the first month as a group they lost 55 lbs,, and to get these women motivated and get them on a program was a task in it’s self!! so what i need to do now , is come up with some hot topics to keep them going and make it sound enthusastic and motivational..to make them to want to participate and  make a team effort to lose weight,, any  suggestions to help these smarties want to stay smart!!i mean  out of the ordinary ..spring is here..things that inspire you that might help make some women who are wheel chair bound and compromised physically, some mentally, ,,i know this is a challenge with in its self, but its like kindergarten and follow the leader,, one has it  the other wants it and if one does thay all do,, so i need help to keep this group moving,, so i am looking for you for some names to some motivational topics,some new ideas, thank you all and everyones imput is appreciated

it is what it is and all with an attitude..if it is to be it is up to me.. and i apply that in all walks in life!diet,relationship and work ethics..

 I have always been the type of person who likes to live outside the box,done things different, and done things different to add variety .. theres always a flip side to every negative. if your diet sucks that day,,thank god for tommorow,just make tommorow come.. its up to you.. to get what results you want in life.i have  always been the one in my family and seems to have trickled to my job and just my life in general, to make things  lighter and  more positive, lets face it we have no room in life for people who suck,,and i don’t have to like everyone… and it always seems to be the ones you love most that sabotage your day… and usually in life you can sweep away the negative people and come  back to deal with them later on in life.. EXCEPT for family!! they love you know matter what!!! BUT I DON”T.. and  sometimes they just don’t know how hard it is to discipline yourself, and for those of you that have been on a diet, know that we take on a transformation and we learn to say NO!!. well something we have become self centered and well i just think we become self caring.. hard to do on a daily basis, and you must admit that being on a diet trying to change your life is the most fustrating thing i ever did in my life!!!.

and most recently.. i think i have done the most change in my life.  looking at life with different perspective, and more preciuos then i have ever , having a reality check with mortality , in the past few months i think i have been more in my heart then ever before, my best friends mom died and my ex father in law who has wlays been a mentor to me even after i was long out of the family and then another close friends father died, and a few weeks ago my father had a stroke, what a reality of mortality check i had.. and how  the whole families look on life has changed, looks as in the past few months everyone has jumped on my self caring train for some reason or other, health, weight  loss, and  newly diagnosed conditions.. and oddly enough it has made getting together as a family alot easier, and guilt free,

well i suppose what the moral of my blog is,   to make every moment count, don’t carry any grudges and  smile when you answer your phone ,, and make every moment count, have a positive attitude and its not worth the heaviness we carry around ,, if you look at it we throw our own stones in our roads.. its up to us to throw them aside, maybe if we lighten the load the work load won’t be so heavy!! share the love with everyone who walks through your door.. and from me to you,,  have a happy heart and make life matter..

Well as many of  been peeling back the layers to understand what iit is about ourselves that makes us think the way we think…  and soul searching of  being truly who we want to be and if this was my last day on earth what do i want to be remembered as.. i certainly don’t  think family and friends would remember me as that fat girl who couldnt  lose weight. as hard as she tried and  succeeded and failed…it is something that holds ya back some where . and weight lose hasn’t been always something i focused on.. there was a time i didnt even think of it.. but as i grew up,, so did my body,,

but i believe somewhere in my life i become insecure and ashamed of myself as well.. as a bubbly personality i hid alot of who i am ,, its  always easy to hide things when you have a bubbly personality.and events in your life don’t help matters much.  being divorced and leaving  for another women    with children when all i ever wanted was a child and well times have changed and life moved on and even my thought process changed, i am getting to old for children and well other things get in the way of that as well,i think back then i wanted children for all the wrong reasons, now i am ok with the fact that i don’t have children and i think its being comfortable in life with who i am  and who i am with certainly makes  life  alot more meaningful.

my little nephew asked me the other day! whats a soul,and as adult to a little boy who has so many questions about life and death and whys,,, after loosing his mommy at a young age, i  dug real deep to explain, a soul in a childs language.

a soul is that little baby deep down inside of you, that need to be protected, its who you really are,,if you like blue, don’t let anyone convince you  that you like red, if you like rock and roll music and i like  disco don”t let anyone change   your mind to like something you don’t, protect the real you and be who you are and don’t change the  baby in you to be someone your not. always remember that baby in you need love and protection and always needs to be nurtured as a mommy does  her child you need to always remember what that baby inside you truly needs,

well i am sure i could of went on and on, but i hear him saying things that as silly as that analysis to adults might have been he got it..

and well just like adults we truly forget  who might be and  if today was the last day of my life am i right where i want to be. as i get older, and  having mike in my life made me live my life like that child i lost for so long, i am  happy in my heart. and things like dieting  arent as important and hard to do when you have someone you can share every emotion with…

lord knows why i am so deep today but we  all have trigger points in our lives that just  fires sometimes, and some of us go a round and and      go right back to it and some just are like a powder keg and ready to explode. life is weird, and well i really had time to think this weekend about those in my life, and those who were here and gone and those still around somewhere,…

i use to write in a journal since i was 16 and have not in a while, i would answer and see in writing the things in life i needed to understand, and would keep writing till i understood it and if i had something to get off my chest i would, and well i learned not to hold it in anymore and get it out and say it and its over no grudges held,, a healthy thing to do… but journaling on here has been  nice.you share and  someone outnthere truly knows where your coming from..

well spring  is here and the weather is noce so i am spring cleaning my soul,, to be who in life i want to be….may all your lives be filled with loves , that the rocks we put in our roads, can be easily tossed aside, to make your paths  be whatever you want it to be in life. you hold the key!!the journey is yours,how ever you choose it.. wisely and lovingly

  ..hello all.. just a fast blog to say hello and hope all is well with the your worlds mike and i have been extremely busy and now that the waether broke its even busier.. our diets seem to be going stress less mike lost about 14 lbs so far and i lost about 9,,, not to shabby.. the gym actually is a good thing and  the weather breaking gives us a good excuse to go for a walk with  beuford our over energetic bassett hound whose just ready to get out of the house.. all is well and we are over whatever was keeping us down and the bug we were down with for two weeks seems to be  gone mikes still holding on to it a little but  on antibiotics now,, but we are well hope the challenge between the   red and blue team are cntinuing to be a good challenge , i wish you all well…this  day light savings change seem to be a good thing, and  keeping it light longer,good luck and here comes spring… yeahhhhh

new motto AIN”T NUTTIN  TO IT BUT TO DO IT.. hello everyone and well i havent been on in a while been sick still since the last time i blogged and been having alot of trouble with this computer still can not get to answer blogs something must be wrong with my system its taking forever,, and i am getting impatient,, but i read  and when my computer allows me to answer i do.. so i am still amongst the universe,, and my word of wisdom  this week is theres nothing to it but to do it.. just do it don’t fight it, dont’t argue it, don’t make excuses for it..   just adopt the fact that this is what it is,, and  make do,, i cant eat junk like others , i have to move  and work hard at what i want if i want it bad enough,…because a minute on my  lips is a life time on my hips,, and lord i cant stands no more,,,,