maddy

Oh My lord what has taken over me,,.

since i went on vacation i feel like i can’t get back into life. I am still on one big vacation,, whats with me acting like i don’t need to watch what i am eating. and i better watch everything i eat, because a minute on the lips a life time on the hips.. I am just having a good ole’ time with myself...

but actually i am really gearing up to sew my mouth shut.. i gave myself a deadline and said get it out of your system… cause come monday,, it’ll be alright,, i am full steam ahead,..

don”t know why i chose monday ! i just did!but anyone,ever have one of these moments,funniest thing is i really am not stressed, just going about my merry way!! happy and anxious summer is almost here, camping, beach walk, fishing on the boat, i am so ready for the summer,, i can’t wait, i walked outside  yesterday and smelled a burger on a bar b q,, cooking somewhere in the  near  distance,, was like i could do a dance,, my heart got all happy and i headed for my flip flops,,,, yippeee,,summers here!!,,well hope i can get back on the ban wagon, before i am two ton annie, for the summer and i’ll be bitchin a fit, i have 5 weeks to loose 20 lbs,,  think i can do it!!

Hello Everyone,

yeppers still trying to get back into reality,seems like i take one vacation and i get stuck in mode.

I actually think its the spring thing going on and i have so much to accomplish this week and got some things done but my head is up my tuckus this week .

probably as busy as everyone else with communions,birthdays, weddings, bar bq’s. its getting crazy around here, but a busy life is a good life..

diet program still not on my list yet but i am working myself up to it, went past the weight watchers  meeting today but  didn’t get the chance to go sign up, but i am working on it, for some damn reason, i JUST CAN”T DO IT .. but i will i know it just have to lay on the bed and try zipping my pants up with the hanger,  remember those days,, OH my God~!.

we do some wacked out things when we are hidden the buldge,..

but summer is just around the corner and i must say!! i need to get with the program , i see me taking the big sizes out again, i should just throw those suckers away when i am out of them, but i don’t ,,because i know me,, i am such a yo -yo dieter, i keep them and lord knows there probably all out dated,, but they will come back around again some day!!(making myself feel better)!!

although my spirits are high and life has been good, besides a few family issues ,, but thats family,, for ya!….sure wish there was a miracle..and i had a magic wand,..

other then that we have a new week and i have some things around this house that need doing so i am going to go to it!! have a awesome week and i’ll be back to blogging , to get my motivation going again,

Back to life back to reality.. But i am still on vacation mode ,,ugh..

cruise was great weather was awesome, and see i went and brought the sun back home  to long island, and has spring sprung when i was gone!!..

the blossoms are all in bloom,, and BEAUTIFUL!! yeah… time for new growth and starting over…

and well mexico was awesome and sobeautiful, so much poverty in some places in our world hard to imagine people live like that still, people still work for 1$ an hour, i would just die,, and they work hard and long, and well thats where i have a bleeding heart i just wanted to give my money to some families i have seen in the towns we toured , i actually stopped taking pictures, because of one man shame when we passed through he covered his face with the paper he was reading,  at that given moment i was feeling guilty that i am on vacation and there life is my vacation. and well thats when we only took pictures of the beaches and scenic places. which are beautiful..and well  we did learn we like dune buggying..GUESS WHOSE GETTING  A BUGGY NOW!!

and well one thing cruises are not good for are people who are watching there diets, and  have a alcohol problem…i actually have to come clean with you all.. mike and i had honestly had to have put back on all our lbs between the midnight buffets and dinners and drinks …..OMG>>i am   still out of control and now looking for desperate help to get me  back on track!! NO will power, no want and having a hard time getting back to program i actually am going to start weight watchers again,,