maddy

I just can’t standz no more!!

well as if the past weeks haven’t been bad enough, one more thing had to just happen, i tell you it’s been years since things rolled like this in  our world, and well my fiance was rushed to the hospital,in A-fib, for those of you who have no idea what that is , it is  a extremely rapid heart beat, and i spent since thursday in the hospital with him,  i told him if he didn’t want to  start wedding plans he didn’t have to let me know this way!..trying to make fun of the subject, but i have to honestly share with you all…….I am Extremely exhausted and  it seems to be one thing after another, mike is home and safe now and i am taking care of him but he is  scared to death that  the A-fib will reoccur..one thing is he now recognizes what it feels like and he will go directly to the hospital if it happens again,.well my parents are ok..since the accident and well they still relive the scene with the lady flying out the window and unfortunately she did not live. and the ambulette driver , i believe is in big trouble, it will be a law case now, so the sega continues, and well i shared my one brother is going to foreclosure but the reality is going to try a quick sale before it foreclosures but a little to late, well she did a open house  yesterday and she opened the windows and unlocked the doors so people could help them selves in and out and well the real estate agent  neglected to lock the door when the open house was over and YEP!! guess what!! the house was burgularized,, as if his luck is bad enough, ..lord  i pray this black cloud leaves real soon, because i need a vacation…

so dieting……no watching what i eat …yes being aware of what i am  eating and no soda in about 3 months and i don’t even miss it, i  maintained the 7 lbs down. but i have to say it is the furthest thing from my mind.

i have to take care of whats at hand ….take care of things that are a priority and help those who need me most…in the process i am still keeping my goal  in sight.i thank you for those of you who have been following  my blogs and understand why i haven’t been a good buddy for now,  and when time allows and things settle down i will be  here to catch up on all of you importnant to me, in the meantime you do what you have to do and take care of yourselves and be happy, take the time for yourselves …..you never  know what tommorow brings.

Well .. things have been good for to long, and i always thank god, i have the people in my life to go through things with me,  it has been one bad thing after another, and well unfortunately it has come around to things going on for us.

so many things on pour plate to deal with, my brother divorcing loosing a home, my other brother loosing his job and also facing foreclosure, and i ask my self what next, two weeks ago my parents in a accident, and this week it’s my  time to add to the chaos,

 but i don’t share with my parents things because as old as you are your always there children, so i will share with them when all is said and done, after all i gave them enough deal with a long time ago. T.O.M has been here for over a month went to the  Dr. and i have to go for further testing, asked if it could possibly be my changes, and well  of course they say Possibly? but no definitive answer, of course they seem a little skeptical after the internal that there not sure and going for further testing  on the 5th, , and another test on the 19, and  not to mention my gall bladder acted up and i am going for a sono for that tommorow, so i suppose it is my time to deal.. and i have to say i believe i am in the funk because  even though i been a relatively  fluffy girl most my life and i hit forty in september and OH  MY GOD!! IT HIT THE FAN . and hasn’t stopped.but one good this is  , i have lost 7.5 lbs and haven,t given up on trying as challenging as it been to even lose weight these past 3 months i did not quit!!…this time will pass and be behind us soon and i just have to embrace it take care of it and move on..but going through the emotions and the stress is not easy when a big fat shake would help, but then make me sick to my stomache and it’s not worth being uncomfortable. so with that note i am going to  look at  a new week in a different light and take care of me this week.