maddy

Well .. things have been good for to long, and i always thank god, i have the people in my life to go through things with me,  it has been one bad thing after another, and well unfortunately it has come around to things going on for us.

so many things on pour plate to deal with, my brother divorcing loosing a home, my other brother loosing his job and also facing foreclosure, and i ask my self what next, two weeks ago my parents in a accident, and this week it’s my  time to add to the chaos,

 but i don’t share with my parents things because as old as you are your always there children, so i will share with them when all is said and done, after all i gave them enough deal with a long time ago. T.O.M has been here for over a month went to the  Dr. and i have to go for further testing, asked if it could possibly be my changes, and well  of course they say Possibly? but no definitive answer, of course they seem a little skeptical after the internal that there not sure and going for further testing  on the 5th, , and another test on the 19, and  not to mention my gall bladder acted up and i am going for a sono for that tommorow, so i suppose it is my time to deal.. and i have to say i believe i am in the funk because  even though i been a relatively  fluffy girl most my life and i hit forty in september and OH  MY GOD!! IT HIT THE FAN . and hasn’t stopped.but one good this is  , i have lost 7.5 lbs and haven,t given up on trying as challenging as it been to even lose weight these past 3 months i did not quit!!…this time will pass and be behind us soon and i just have to embrace it take care of it and move on..but going through the emotions and the stress is not easy when a big fat shake would help, but then make me sick to my stomache and it’s not worth being uncomfortable. so with that note i am going to  look at  a new week in a different light and take care of me this week.